Peace Seeking and Bound

Hold it down,
Hold it back.
Don't let it out,
Just don't want to crack.
Turn them into normal,
Create something real.
Not sure where to start,
Never wanted to know how this feels.
Tell me all I need to hear,
knowing I need peace.
Use my emotions to turn me,
until the pressure isn't ceasing.
Shape the words into love,
my soul yearns for this.
It is my sadistic medicine,
that I want to shove away.
I'm told I have to take it,
these words filled with RX.
No end to this,
b/c this is what I chased.
No way to let my wounds heal,
all they need is time.
Time seems to be a forbidden luxury,
so my wounds will remain unsealed.
Tell my soul,
peace will be found.
Now or never,
I am peace seeking and bound