Not happy today

Not happy today

Why do I keep speaking?

When there's not much to say?

Why keep pretending?

When I don't feel right today

I can't keep denying I am hurting you by just being around

When your doubt leads to your hurt

And I have left you bruised on the surface and bleeding within

Nothing can help this state that you’re in

Tumbling down like rain from the sky

My a tears on the brink

Begging to cry

But I must hide this pain

For to hurt you once again

Is like thunder in a spring rain

Where is the bottom, I haven't quite hit?

A candle or fire that used to be lit

Just flutters and dies and sucks away light

Then why do my eyes never tire at Night

Pins in my eyelids that never bring sleep

That strangle the sobs that they never let me weep

And all this makes for a terrible day

Where it feels like love has just fluttered away

Feathers that break when wind is too strong

The tendrils of dread, just twist round my tongue

I am left here with nothing to say

I can’t explain

Why I'm not happy today

Your heart left me alone