May 14, 2013

This day I is see is going to kill me. I only have one person to speak to but I cannot speak openly to him. For he will defend the girl whose words are the cause of me wishing to destroy what’s left of me, the one that said I should kill myself. The marks I place are spreading. My family wishes me gone but her words make me question what kind of person would tell someone, who they know little about, that they are worthless and should die; someone that has never done anything to her, never even spoken to her. She marks the ones she doesn’t like and makes it so they are never accepted, always attacked, and forced to always stand alone. They become outcasts. Never welcomed, never trusted, and never given a chance to show themselves as themselves. Outcasts are always the targets. They are easily attacked and mutilated. The reason for this is to others they are seen as unnecessary or not useful. How do I know this? Well I was marked an outcast a long time ago, I understand the pain that comes with the title. A couple years back I was given a chance to show myself. And now a girl that feels she is better than everyone else has labeled me a monster and an outcast, everyone believes her for she holds the power. I do not hate her nor do I pity her. She is like so many others. So why sign my name in blood as she has. I do not fear her nor am I like her. So why attack her like she has me? I have placed one curse on her and that was because of a comment she made toward my best friend. She said that he was a stupid bitch that she could make do whatever she wanted by just blinking her eyes. He likes her and she knows it. She keeps using him and whenever he doesn’t jump at her command she treats him like shit and tells everyone that he is sexist and many other terms that I really don’t want to type. I don’t know her, she doesn’t know me yet she attacks me and others.  Maybe she hates herself so she feels that she must attack others so that she can feel good or happy, or maybe her parents has set high standards and placed her on a pedestal and now she feels that she is better than all else. I’m not sure. But I do know that people like her are the reasons that people kill themselves. She is the cause of these marks on my arms. *Sigh* but this is just a phase that will soon destroy her instead of the ones she attacks.