How do you repair your shell??

When you have tried and tried, bent over backwards and they still dont see you for whom you are...time and time again they rip your very breathe from you just to leave the gaping wound to show they were once there. How do you turn off the love you have for them? When it is clear that you were never more then a mere plaything for their time and ticks, Where as it was your soul that you intertwined with what you thought was theirs, the lives of a family you foresaw has come to ruin and you still can't bring yourself to hate them for your love was given freely without condition or hesitation....Leaving you a shell of the you, you once and never more will be!