Looking for Experienced Natural Witch Teacher

Pardon if my wording isn't per the norm, but I am looking for someone who can help me understand the things that I've been experiencing since I was a young girl. Most of these things include seeing spirits (both good and bad), premonitions and emotional control during astral projection. I know how to separate my physical body from my spiritual body, but I can't control my emotions...which means I can't control my projections. I consider myself Christian, but I also know that many Christian rituals and symbols were adopted from early Pagans. 

Again, these were things I was born with. On three separate occasions, I've seen people I loved dying while it was happening in perfect time sequence while miles apart. With that being said, sometimes it feels more like a curse than a gift. I was hoping that maybe if I gained some understanding or possibly some control, it would make my life a little more habitable. 

Any help or suggestions would be greatly appreciated.